yesterday which is 11/11 is kenny's birthday! went to celebrate his birthday at ckt's old place. crazy night. a lot of people was there, didn't really count. there were some new faces though.. didn't met them for aroud few months. at first, didn't want to go over and meet them cause scared like weird ah..

so went luh... bla bla bla bla bla bla. wanted to go home at 12plus but they keep saying for the past few mths i have been neglecting them bla bla bla, so stayed.

wanted to make kenny drunk but he can control his own limit. in the end, some of them were drunk. but luckily none was dead. went home after we saw 2 policemen. what an ending~

okay today ....... now is currently 2.21am.
i can't sleep. i've tried twice to lie down on my bed to sleep, but i can't. so i'm here to blog. i keep thinking abt the same thing for the past few days. i'm feeling so arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

and i'm really afraid that the same thing might happened to me once again. i'm really afraid to fall and get hurt all over again. it has been a phobia for me since that fucking bastard cheat my feelings. and hello, not once but twice okay.

but die lah. i think the feelings for him are getting more and more. hahahahhahahhahahha.