very long never post pictures already. i've become a boring person already. no sparks in my life.

i'm halfway thru o's and the emo mood came back to me again. i'm so afraid of getting results. i dont know why, although next year then get but i really hoped that all my hardwork/effort is not paid off. what if i get 32 for my o's? i'll cry. what if i get 11? i'll be so fucking happy. but what if i get 23? i'll be happy that i pass, but i dont know where to go. like rifaii say, this year is like a emotional challenge for all of us. although we might keep saying that if we fail, jus go ite or private school or retake olevel, but that's not wat we really wants. even if we go to the route that we doesnt like, we wont happy.

so not in the mood to study.

i miss all my friends. i miss playing mahjong. i miss going shopping. i miss eatng sakae sushi. i miss sentosa. i miss swimming. i miss going on a holiday. i miss drinking. i miss slacking for the whole damn day. i miss everything that i used to do. this is not what i enjoy.