today is a feeling feeling day for me.

i saw this old lady today, i think she's around late 50s-early 60s. and when i asked her to sign the paper, her hand was trembling. her son kept staring at her hand and then help her. for that moment, i thought of my mum. when she grow old, will she become like this? i'm so afraid when the day my parents are sick and i can't even afford the medical fees because i've no stable job. i dont want to see this happens, so i suddenly have the urge to study hard but all that must wait till jan for my results to be out.

and i also thought of smth today. normally i tell people around me that i'll never give birth but then what all parents wish to have is a grandchild. i'm the onl child in this family and if i dont give birth, who else? so maybe i will. but who knows no one wants to marry me lah.

okay. no more feeling feeling post already.

yah! Cheng Jin came to find me today! and he did a few magic tricks for me to see and it freaked me out. SERIOUSLY! after so long didn't met up with him, he changed so so so much. now like super full of confidence! which is good la!