this is an emo post. u guys can just ignore it. dont bother to ask me what happened either.


i'm so utterly disappointed in myself.

not it's either re-do or just leave it.

i did tried my best. and i really did. if it was me in te past, i wouldn't give a fcuk bout it. but what to do, it died on me. worst of all, i dont know how to solve it. nobody does.

i all along thought that i'm a happy-go-lucky girl who can take failures easily. but guess what, im so weak. one failure and i dont know what to do. perhaps im just useless or even hopeless. can even do a thing right. maybe what those people says it's right. im useless. only know hw to spend money and slacking around. not able to do big things.

actually i would have be finished by now, but nw NO! argh. if only if only.

and when i was out of school, the sky is damn dark. really no mood already then the sky still so dark make my mood more bad. nevermind, reached home and went downstairs to buy cigs. HEAVY RAIN. i'm drenched like a roast pig. then emo-ing already.

this thing really put me down. it may be a small thing to u guys but the effect on me is really huge. thank god there's this sec4 guy(but i dont know his name) helping me and keep telling me dont panic. but still, the thing wasn't solved. shall just concentrate on my folio and see what i can do for that shit thing on tuesday.

may all be well and happy. i feeling black and red today.