the feelings for him seems to remain there.. no up or down. i just dont now what i really feel for him. i'm afraid to get hurt again or jus hurt another person. i dont know what to do. he knows that i like him, but why.. no answer from him? no news no nothing.. what's his thinking? i dont even know.. and he told me another story. what the hell. i dont know who to believe. hais. the feeling is like damn SIAN can. even rifaii can tell, im not like this in the past. it feels like smth is missing.. but i just dont know what.. family? no. friends? no. money?mayb but no. studies? definitely no. love? ii dont know.
MUST BE LAH! i dont know wtf im trying to analyse.
i jus want be like last time. everything also laugh. its been a long long ime since i had a gd real long laugh....

hopefully school reopens, things wouldnt be so awkward.

i feel my blog is so boring. words words and words.. but i just love typing out whatever i feel.